Me, Myself & My Chi

My thoughts are as fast as a hungry cheetah running after her preys. I wrote over 5 blogs in the period July and August. Finalized all my projects of 2019 to develop it further to the next level. Isn’t that what they call excellent multitasking skills? Well it is, if it was in real-time action. These thoughts didn’t even touch a piece of paper, The last write-up was in June, which is blog post #2 of this year.

I knew my posts wouldn’t be popping out every month as 2020. But I wasn’t expecting my overdue projects to enter another Autumn season, untouched. Meanwhile I continue to add new fun activities to my already busy schedule for “sanity” reasons.

Isn’t that madness?

Now overwhelmed with all the fun goodies, I calmly instruct myself not to freak out knowing the New Year is near. If Corona taught me a thing or two, it would be that everything can change at anytime in a single heartbeat. So, putting things on hold (e.g. this blog post) or worse give up on a personal project for leisure is not the end of my world anymore. As long as I am living and capable, there is hope.  I will try again (in Aaliyah’s voice)  whether it is the same or different plan.

That’s why the revival of my hidden passions( dancing and writing) from 10- 15 years ago is magical. It does not only bring me balance, but also energizes me in many other facets of my life. My determination to make the best out of my life has never been so fervent. This means keeping myself occupied with things that makes me happy without worrying if I make money of it. Purely doing things for the love of it is priceless.

How I do it is quite simple. First I think, think some more and overthink. Then dive in it, voilà. If it makes sense to me, I take it to the next level, this is where (a bit of) research comes in. Then I squeeze it tight to fit my agenda. This is how I started with C Moves. Every day I worked on the concept. Even if it is only 15 minutes of creating, practicing or researching. I know is far from where I want it to be. Nevertheless I prefer this long route.  So I will not complain, but will quench my hunger for freedom by walking the extended path.

I feel privileged to follow my own unconventional desired path on my own terms. I know that even if it takes me months or years of daydreaming, I can still make a touchdown if I want it. Also means that some activities will have to wait for other “bigger” things to move. Is a matter of what pays the bills will have priority. Because there is no (hidden) money tree growing in the back of my garden.

For the first time I can say: I am watching myself with all my flaws flourish into the kind of woman I want to become. I can define and acknowledge my roles better as a: human, daughter, sister, mother, woman, aunt, cousin, partner, self-employer, manager, (best)friend, board member, colleague, dancer, blogger, and even sometimes an activist.

I am in a nonstop motion carrying out several activities and roles with major responsibilities on my shoulders, like raising my princes. That is my main priority. Besides that, there are no certainties, except the choice to be always true to me, myself and my (inner) God. Understanding that has made my life so much easier. Just like the fact that every plan, project or person can change at any time, but a strong mind never will. What is meant to be will eventually be done.

Is great to be back. How have you been combining your agenda with the things you love doing lately? Curious to know your thoughts.

All images are from Suka Photography

*Featured Image on top a selfie  by Chi